This is Garrett Murray's Maniacal Rage

I hadn’t fully formed the thought of quitting yet, but was very aware of this particular cigarette. Very aware of my relationship with the cigarette. I hadn’t fully committed to it being my last so the moment lacked gravity. It was serene actually. A calm before the storm. I didn’t have another cigarette that night and when I woke up the next morning I thought, “I could do this. Right now, this moment… I could do this.